Having a bummer day

I made the decision to go back to school to become an elementary teacher. At first I was going to go to the University of Phoenix because I could do the entire program online. Although I did receive a lot of support, in the back of my mind the negative criticism was still there about going to school online, especially for the core teaching classes. And then after a bit more research I realized how out of the world expensive each credit hour was. So I made the decision to do the "smart" thing, finish out my basic classes at the community college to get my associates and then transfer to a local university and finish in evening classes. Only problem is almost all of the classes are full at the community college. I went this morning thinking that it would be no big deal to register. Instead I kind of got a lecture about waiting until the last minute. I guess I forgot about classes filling up and so forth. And I should have made this decision a long time ago. But please don't lecture me, I already feel old enough beginning this at my age (and, yes, I know 34 isn't old). There were other words/slash names I wanted to call the sweet lady, but I am too old for that.

The community college does offer courses online for a lot of the basics and that is what I really want. Why do I want to do this? Hmmmmmmm, I babysit during the day to bring in my portion of income and so I can be home with the kids (to save on childcare) and Jesse works disgustingly weird hours at night. But the lady smirked when she told me that those are next to impossible to get into. Why in the hell are they offered then? For me to go to school a few nights a week defeats the purpose that I stay home with the kids during the day because I would have to get a babysitter. Don't get me wrong, for the most part I love being home with the kids and even watching the others. But right now, I am just aggravated that I want to do something and keep hitting walls. I am aware that when I transfer to a 4 year college I will go in the evenings, but I figured that is at least 1 - 2 years down the road.

I have been really looking forward to going back to school. (Heck, I think I even motivated a cousin of mine to go back). I just didn't think it was going to be so tough.

I am also kicking myself HARD in the butt for not doing it when it was available to me right out of high school. I went.........but I didn't really go for the classes, I went for the parties. Well, that wasn't really my initial goal, but to make a long story short, that's what happened. (Sorry again Mom and Dad!)

Anyway, that's my super bummer of a day. The will have further classes that will open on the 13th (anyone that hasn't paid their tuition by the 11th will be dropped from classes and then they MIGHT open for me). Granted registration opens at 8am and the lady today told me there will be lines around the building. Wasn't she a sweetheart, I have no idea why I almost left in tears. Hey, I made it to the car at least. I thought the job of an advisor was to be encouraging. I guess that's only if you are in high school So I guess that I will get up at 4:30 and take my chances of being there at 5:00AM. Please wish me luck that I get into at least one or two of the classes, and yes they will be at night, and yes I will have to find someone to watch the kids.